This morning I woke up to only having two cigarettes left. Since January when the insurance company totaled my car, I have been dependent on others for trips to the store. My daughter has a car, but I couldn't bring myself to waking up to use her car before she had to leave for her college classes. My neighbor, a stay-at-home mom, has offered to help me when I need help.
When I woke up, she was my first thought, however, I have a strict rule about bothering people before 9 am. I even pondered asking someone else or even walking to the store. Little did I know that she was needing a friend this morning more than I needed a cigarette. Not even five minutes after the school bus came, she texted me asking if I needed a ride. Then, as I climbed into her car, her tears started falling. After the short trip to the corner store, we returned to my house where she and I sat talking for a bit. I am grateful I could be there for her in her time of need.
Our thoughts are not always our own. I have learned over the years that when people randomly enter our minds it is usually coming from an outside source. You may call divine guidance, spirit guided, guardian angels, or intuition, but where it comes from doesn't matter as much as acting on it when you get it. I do my best now to reach out to people as they enter my mind. At times I find that the person was thinking of me at that exact time. Other times, like this morning, I find that the person is struggling with a part of life that I have experience with.
When our lives become messy and our emotions are spiraling out of control, we tend to hide in our pain and block others that are able to help by not being open with our feelings. As I have learned the hard way, the longer you hide your emotions the worse it is when you let them out. This usually comes from a time in our lives where we were forced to handle things alone. Times which we asked for help, and it never came or we were shamed for needing help or having emotions.
I learned a long time ago that there is always a purpose for everything and everyone that comes into my life. From the neighbors I befriend, men that I have dated, my children's friends, coworkers, and reconnecting with people from the past; either they have what I need or I have what they need. The hard part is not letting the fear of judgement from the past keep us from asking for help now. Lucky for me I have been judged my whole life by friends, family, and strangers and now I just couldn't care less about the people who cast judgement because I know that their judgement is just a reflection of their own fears and being judged. (more on this in another post).
So when that friend that you haven't seen for a while enters your mind, make that call, send that text. Furthermore, when you are struggling, let yourself ask for help. If you don't know who to ask; ask your angels, ask God, and let them bring you someone that can help.
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